Leila

Back in the 'Boro

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 14:27:33 GMT

I'm liking my second year at school so far. My new roommates are really nice and easy to get along with. My first day of classes went well yesterday... its nice not having any morning classes. Yesterday I went to a meeting about service projects around here, and apparently they have one at Head Start, and since I'm familiar with it from working there all summer, I might go for it here too. I'm looking forward to the English Club and the Elementary Club starting, as well as work starting next week. My boss gave me a sweet $0.50 raise that was really exciting. :)

Like last year, I don't mind being away from home, in fact I actually enjoy it. Its just really hard being away from Chris when I was in the habit of seeing him practically everyday. I'm a little jealous of my roommates Tekia and Erica, because their boyfriends live around here and they get to see them constantly. Chris might be coming here next week, but if not I know I'll be going up to Hofstra for his birthday.

Thats really it for now, I just thought I'd write a little something before the day unfolded.

Summer

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 17:33:19 GMT

Summer is almost halfway over. Halfway isn't even so bad, since there's still two months to go, but its weird that two months have already gone by so quickly. The past two months have kind of been a blur: got into some really bad fights with Chris over things that I finally needed to come clean about, had a one day job as a Crocs salesperson (yes, laugh at me), finally went to the Bronx Zoo after a failed attempt at going to a Yankees game, and finished a night class. I haven't seen all the people I've meant to enough, but there are enough reasons why that probably is. I just started working at Center for Family Resources in Ringwood, where I get to play with and take care of babies and toddlers. Its a great job, except that I haven't build up a "baby immunity" yet, and the little ones got me sick after being there for about two days. Summer hasn't been a let-down, but it also hasn't been what I had hoped it would be. I'm okay with that though... there is still time.

life thus far

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 23:00:03 GMT

I am grabbing college by the horns.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 18:41:16 GMT

Highschool came and went. I remember the 14 year old me that came to Lakeland four years ago... and I'm happy to say that I've changed for the better since then.

Graduation was weird. First I felt annoyed, then anxious, then sad, then completely happy to be finished. There are plenty of people I am so, so, so happy never to be seeing again, but there are also so many that I know I will see and won't forget.

In the end... it was bittersweet, but I'm ready to move on to whatever is waiting for me.

public

Fri, 26 May 2006 01:56:44 GMT

I find it really hard to believe that May is almost over, prom is two weeks away, and highschool is coming to a close.
I can't even think of the words to say, because everything has already been said.
The most I can really say is that I'm sorry, I'm thankful, and I'm happy for all the things that have happened in my life up until this point.
As scared as I am to move past what I know, I'm really looking forward to whatever I still have yet to find.

Thu, 04 May 2006 19:16:32 GMT

I'm going to do the right thing, I'm going to listen to my dad, I'm going to go for one friend and against another, and I don't want anyone to be hurt.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 15:36:21 GMT

When you have burned your bridges at your own fault, please don't expect anyone to re-build them but yourself.
I can only point the finger; I cannot blame myself for something I did not start.
If you claim that you want to fix something so badly, then just do it.
I won't.

this need not be taken seriously... but...

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 20:40:55 GMT

I think the Big 5's need to be expanded to the Big 6's:

Looks are based on body, face, and personal style. (10 points)
Intelligence is based on grades, common sense, ability to hold an interesting conversation, and wit. (20 points)
Thrust is based on both a willingness to thrust and the ability to bring the thrust. (20 points)
Money is based on the guy's money and work effort, not money that his family has. (10 points)
Personality is based on friendliness, sense of humor, etc. (20 points)
Fun is based solely on how much fun the guy is when you're with him. (20 points)

Any additions to that are gladly welcome :)

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 20:32:12 GMT

Life has been pretty good lately. In fact, its been so good, that I could really care less about updating this with anything important, because I don't want to chance the amount of good things that have been happening lately.

"I want to live life, and never be cruel.
I want to live life, and be good to you.
And I want to fly,
I'll never come down,
and live my life,
and have friends around."

Valentine's Day

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 02:40:06 GMT

Thank you.

Tue, 07 Feb 2006 03:27:09 GMT

Absolutely nothing. Rowan is frustrating me. I've got some good backups, but to me, its not a matter of not getting in (and I don't mean that in a cocky way), its knowing when the hell I'm going to get my letter. I've gotten my letters back from everywhere except Rowan and Montclair (the later I could give two shits about), and I sent 'em all in at the same time. Oh well. Sorry to bitch.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 22:14:11 GMT

Who you've become has scared me.
I might be further from the truth, but you don't seem so happy anymore.
I'm worried about who you are, what you are doing, and whether or not you're being true to yourself.
I wish there was an easier way to say this.

"Please be honest Mary Jane, are you happy?
Please, don't censor your tears."

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 21:31:57 GMT

What
a
fucking
prick.

dammit

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 00:43:21 GMT

Its the most awesome feeling to know that my life is in my own hands, that I'm able to make my own decisions, and that I'm old enough and responsible enough to handle the consequences. Phew.

"And it's happened once again,
I'll turn to a friend,
someone that understands,
sees through the master plan.
But everybody's gone
and I've been here for too long
to face this on my own,
well I guess this is growing up."

"Ay bitch! Wait 'til you see my dick"

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 20:59:47 GMT

Wednesday thru Sunday was nothing but intense. I really cannot remember the last time I've felt that completely and genuinely happy.

I can't go into detail on livejournal because that just undermines how awesome the trip was, so, if you really want to know what happened, you can ask. All I can say is... wow.

Pictures I took from the trip are posted on my photobucket here.

so take a look at me now

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 16:55:13 GMT

TCNJ was beautiful.
St. John's was awesome.
Montclair isn't bad for a safety school.

... And there is nothing else going on in my life right now besides an endless college search and way too much school work.

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 19:18:45 GMT

When I let things go and lose focus, I see more clearly. And I have a better time.

seniors '06, ahhhh!

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 02:49:29 GMT

Finally a Senior! Here's my schedule:

1st Semester-
Block 1- Photography
Block 2- English 4AP
Block 3- Physics
Block 4- Gym/Health

2nd Semester-
Block 1- French 4H
Block 2- Trig
Block 3A- Lunch
Block 3B- Study
Block 4- Classical Mythology
Block 5- G&T Senior Seminar H

Let me know if we have anything together!

oh jeese

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 17:42:06 GMT

1. Google image search the following.
2. Use the first picture that comes up.
3. Post the word(s) used in the search.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday.

eighteen

2. The place you live.

ringwood. I'm pretty sure thats Ringwood in England, not New Jersey

3. Your favorite color.

pink

4. The place you want to get married.

outside

5. Your first love.

tj

6. Your favorite fruit or vegetable.

blueberry

7. Your favorite animal.

cat. that looks so dirty

8. The last name of your favorite actor or actress.

bale. mmmmmm

9. The name of a pet.

frisky (the hamster)

10. Your favorite song.

hold. ahh, naked!

11. A bad habit of yours.

nail biting. ewwwwwwww

12. Your middle name.

none. wtf??

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 04:50:06 GMT

All I can say is...
'FUCK YOU' TO WHOEVER THREW A BOULDER INTO MY FUCKING WINDSHIELD. YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BREATHE, YOU FUCKING PRICK.
Phew. Basically, I left my car at the Weis parking lot (like I do on occasion) and went out with LK. When she was dropping me off around 11:30 I came back to my car to find a fucking boulder sized rock next to it, and my windshield looking like

LK drove me back home, I got my dad, we drove down to my car, called the cops, filed a report, yadda yadda. I have a feeling I know who did this, and all I can really say is 'What the fuck? Did I ever do anything to you? To ANYONE?'. I was in hysterics, upset that someone would do that to my car, and even more upset because I know and believe that no one in their right mind has neither a right nor a fucking reason to do that to my car. So end note, fuck you.

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Mon, 04 Jul 2005 18:53:02 GMT

I have some CDs and DVDs that I need to get rid of. I'm tired of having stupid System of a Down cds taking up space :/ Buy something; everything is in good condition and super cheap. Contact me if you're interested!

CDS:
Birdbrain - Let's Be Nice ($2)
Foo Fighters - One By One ($4) [comes with bonus DVD]
Good Charlotte - Self Titled ($4)
The Juliana Theory - Emotion is Dead ($4)
Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory ($3)
No Doubt - Simple Kind of Life ($1) [its a single w/ Full Circle & Beauty Contest]
Papa Roach - Infest ($3) [cover has a crack, but everything else is fine]
A Perfect Circle - Thirteenth Step ($4)
POD - Satellite ($3)
Punk-O-Rama Vol. 6 - 2001 ($2)
Sublime - 40 oz. to freedom ($3)
Sublime - Robbin' the hood ($3)
Sum 41 - All Killer No Filler ($2)
System of a Down - Self Titled ($2)
System of a Down - Toxicity ($3)
The Used - Self Titled ($4) [cover has a crack, but everything else is fine]
Warped Tour - 2002 Tour Comp. ($4) [2 P.ROCKIN' cds, what a deal!]
Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Fever to Tell ($4)

DVDS:
American Pie 2 ($5)
Drive Thru Records DVD - Vol. 2 ($5)
8 Mile ($4)
The Mothman Prophecies ($5)
Pieces of April ($4)

BUYbuyBUYbuyBUY!!

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 22:49:23 GMT

Not sure how to word this; I either fucked myself out of a good friendship, or prepared myself for the worst.

The end.

arrrrgh

Mon, 30 May 2005 20:02:40 GMT

I've been royally pissed off at several people this weekend. More like a handful but, yeah, whatever.

[edit] I've been royally pissed off with REASON. Its called a family thing that no one knows about, that I'll make you all so curious to find out about. Its also called "Hey now, where did Leila's friends go?" and "Hey now, thanks for only talking to me when you need something" and "Hey now, thanks for using me". Hey now, screw yourselves [/edit]

I'm back

Sun, 08 May 2005 19:25:15 GMT

FRIENDS ONLY.
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